Habit

    I was at the library, ready to check out a few books. I spend a moment scavenging through my bag for my card, eyes scanning the covers of the paperbacks on the rack by the computer check out.
    I see a book with a bright pink background with “Shopaholic” written across a colorful stylish shopping bag. What a delightful cover. I look at it as I continue to scavenge.
    Then, it hits me. I realize I am looking for my credit card instead of my library card. My fingers are so accustomed to going into my purse and going to the credit card. Who’s the Shopaholic?

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The Revolving Door Parade

 

    The revolving door in front of the hospital keeps moving and moving, even when there is not a soul around. I sit and wait for my father and step-mother to enter. There are ebbs and flows of people.

   There are several people in wheelchairs being pushed by other people. 

    Next comes a few people with canes walking slowly, almost getting trapped in their section of the revolving door. 

    Next comes a delivery man from an ad printing company moving at a fast pace with his patient, a stack of “Ad-pro” boxes balanced on a handtruck.

    Next is a man with a metal clipboard and a black bag with electronics popping out from it. He looks straight ahead, with just a brief glance down at his black bag. He roughly tucks a a stray thin red cord back into the opening in his bag.

     Next is a short stocky man with his hands jammed deeply into the pockets of his kaki’s. 

     Next is a daughter thinking about pushing her mother in a wheelchair through the revolving doors, leg jutting out, casted and elevated. Just in the nick of time, her mother spots the handicapped door and hastily points at it, rather dramatically, as though foreseeing the potential shortcomings of using the revolving door while in a wheelchair in her condition.

    Now a priest in full garb spills out from the revolving glass door, moving quickly. I wonder if he is here for the finality of last rights. 

    The parade abruptly ends when I see two people I recognize, my father and step-mother. I am on my feet and ready to go up before I am even aware of having stood up.

     I am keenly aware of the piece of paper crumpled up tightly in my hand. Room 3118 was written on it moments earlier by the hospital volunteer at the visitor’s booth. I will not need to look at it again. We begin walking towards the elevator. Fear and sadness take over.  I would rather continue to watch the revolving door parade. 

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The Revolving Door Parade

 

    The revolving door in front of the hospital keeps moving and moving, even when there is not a soul around. I sit and wait for my father and step-mother to enter. There are ebbs and flows of people.

   There are several people in wheelchairs being pushed by other people. 

    Next comes a few people with canes walking slowly, almost getting trapped in their section of the revolving door. 

    Next comes a delivery man from an ad printing company moving at a fast pace with his patient, a stack of “Ad-pro” boxes balanced on a handtruck.

    Next is a man with a metal clipboard and a black bag with electronics popping out from it. He looks straight ahead, with just a brief glance down at his black bag. He roughly tucks a a stray thin red cord back into the opening in his bag.

     Next is a short stocky man with his hands jammed deeply into the pockets of his kaki’s. 

     Next is a daughter thinking about pushing her mother in a wheelchair through the revolving doors, leg jutting out, casted and elevated. Just in the nick of time, her mother spots the handicapped door and hastily points at it, rather dramatically, as though foreseeing the potential shortcomings of using the revolving door while in a wheelchair in her condition.

    Now a priest in full garb spills out from the revolving glass door, moving quickly. I wonder if he is here for the finality of last rights. 

    The parade abruptly ends when I see two people I recognize, my father and step-mother. I am on my feet and ready to go up before I am even aware of having stood up.

     I am keenly aware of the piece of paper crumpled up tightly in my hand. Room 3118 was written on it moments earlier by the hospital volunteer at the visitor’s booth. I will not need to look at it again. We begin walking towards the elevator. Fear and sadness take over.  I would rather continue to watch the revolving door parade. 

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Wife, Mother, Widow

 

    This evening I attended a wake for a colleague who lost her husband. Her children are with her, rubbing her back, leaning in to share a private word. The family prays the rosary in Spanish. The repetitions of the prayers are like a chant. When I hug her and kiss her on the cheek, I feel the wetness and taste the salt of her tears. I am  very sad. I am stuck in the thought of wife, mother, widow . I think of my own life, and I hear my own thoughts in my head. I am scared, scared of my own worries. 
    I go back to the here and now. I am comforted and touched by the warmth and love I see from her children. Years of caring and love and teaching as a mother shows itself here. Her sorrow is deep, but the love of her family is deep as well, and it will sustain and heal her. 
    All of this swims around in my head for the long drive home. I just want to be home.  When I walk through my front door, I go to my children and kiss each of them on the head. It’s about the love. 

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The Search for the Perfect Travel Mug

 

The Search for the Perfect Travel Mug


   Yes, I have finally found the perfect travel mug.  No leaking, no moving parts, easy clean up.  I am tickled. That is, until I am washing my hands in the bathroom with a mirror in front of me.  What is that?  Coffee spilled down the front of my dress.  I hadn’t felt it because my 100% cotton dress had absorbed it immediately.  I have been walking around like this, with a big brown cascade of coffee down my white dress.  This is unfortunate.   
    I have been on an endless yet crucial search for the perfect travel mug. My standards are actually rather meager.  The liquid that is traveling is coffee . And, I am not particularly demanding in my requirements for it’s travels.  I just want it not to spill while in the cup holder and while drinking it.   I don’t even need it to keep the coffee hot.  I drink day old and 2 day old coffee, no issues there.  Oh, yes, the cleaning function.  I need to be able to clean it relatively easily with a sponge and hot soapy water. Little crevices and pieces and parts that require doll house size brushes to clean it are not an option. 
    So, the search has exposed me to a variety of travel mugs. 
    The insulated stainless steel outside with rubber gripper in the middle is the first one tested.  The top screws into place, and there is a fixed opening. This one worked well until the rubber gripper in the middle began to falter and slip, despite the hour glass shape of this mug to keep it’s rubber corset in place.  Also, it never really dried fully behind there, causing a stagnant odor. Less than ideal for a beverage container to consume things from.  Next.
   Next is a travel mug with the top that you push down, no threads to screw it into.  I am suspicious.  How can this not leak?  I do what any good scientist who hates to do laundry would do, I test it with water.  I am pleased.  No leakage what so ever.  I move forward with my tepid coffee.  As I drink from this travel mug on my way home from work.  I have continued success. After wash number one, the bad news comes.  Major leaking all over the place. I am confused.  What went wrong?  I banish this travel mug to the side of the sink, not even wanting to be burdened at this moment to wash this useless thing.  But, what do I spy in the bottom of the sink?  A black rubber ring the diameter of the coffee mug is in there.  I wash it and attempt to get it past the threaded grooves at the top of the mug. Wait, that is not even the right bottom. I locate the abandoned mug on the side of the sink, wash it, and with irritation, I try to carefully place the rubber ring completely flat against the mug’s rim. It keeps twisting out of place.  This is not going to work.  It needs to be perfectly flat and flush to make a waterproof seal. It’s impossible. That is just not going to happen.  Next.
    Now, I have located a brown and white travel mug that resembles a very stylish disposable coffee cup, right down to it’s brown cover with fixed opening.  This seems like a simple construction.  What can go wrong?  It passes the water test.  It fits in the holder in my truck.  When I get to work, there is a sizable puddle of coffee in the cup holder in my truck and coffee all over the indent on the plastic lid.  The cup’s structure did not handle the movement of the 30 mile ride well at all.  It must have consistently sloshed up out of the opening until the coffee supply was too low to spill out anymore. Next.
    Now I have located another stainless steel travel mug. It’s black plastic lid screws on, with no rubber rings.  And, it has a handy dandy feature on the lid that allows you to slide the opening closed.  This looks great.  It passes the water dribble test, fits well into the cup holder in the truck.  After a few uses, it was undeniable. There was a foul odor emanating from the lid.  I suspect it was stuck in the slide function.  But, despite soaking in hot soapy water and using a toothbrush to scrub it out, the smell was still there. Next.
    I now decide to reuse a Dunkin Donuts cup. Supposedly the styrafoam never biodegrades, so this should be useful for my endeavor.  The cover has a reclosable lid, and it fits into the cup holder in my truck.  The simple construction does not leak.  This is working.  Until day three, when the plastic tab falls off after being opened and closed to many times.  Also, the plastic lid no longer grabs the styrafoam cup as tightly as the first use.  Next.
    I am trapped, at the end of line. I cannot find the prefect travel mug.  I resolve to simply drink my afternoon dose of caffeine that staves off my caffeine withdrawal headache from a cup of some sort in one stand still motion, all at once.  I am not a coffee nurser, anyway.  My husband, now he will take literally 2 to 3 hours to drink a large cup of coffee.  I seriously cannot relate to this.  What is the point to sip and sip and sip? 
    I take all my contraptions out ( I never get rid of the coffee mugs that don’t work, no matter how frustrated I get with them).  I line them all up. I look at each one. I laugh to myself.  They look like they are in a police line up.  I keep looking at each one.  It is time to make my decision and end this quest.  I study each one. The decision; the travel mug with the slide top. It can handle the 30 mile ride into work each day. I will actually take the lid fully off and drink my tepid afternoon dose of caffeine all at once.  My quest has finally ended.


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The 60-Minute Intersection

I get comfortable in the coffee shop sitting at a table looking out the front window. I am at the intersection of Church and Grove Street. I see many sights. My vantage point has a black band across it, part of the windowpane. It makes these scenes look like pictures you see that try, often feebly, to disguise the photo subject’s identity by putting what looks like a strip of black tape across their eyes. Luckily for me, at any time, I can peak above and below this black strip to reveal the full identity, the full truth of the matter.

A man is setting up his hotdog cart, shiny and silver and on three wheels. It is hard to push up the curb, and he uses all of his weight to do it. He takes the deep ocean blue umbrella lying on top, and attaches it to the cart and opens it up. A little piece of beach is here in the city of New Haven. Interesting, the umbrella must be for effect, as his cart is completely in the shade.

Two girls in black tops and tight dark blue jeans wait to cross the street, laughing in unison. They do not wait for the glowing orange-red hand to change to a white walking stick figure and begin the countdown. They do move quickly, bumping their pace up to a slow run at about the halfway point, as a large truck approaches.

A young couple is holding hands. He holds just her fingertips in his hand, delicately, but firmly.

A woman walks past, empty handed, only to momentarily return, walking in the other direction, white styrofoam container in one hand and a bottle of water in the other: lunch.

A woman looks like a lion, her curly full blonde mane surrounding her face as a gust of wind overtakes her from behind.

A man with a perfect side part in his shiny jet-black hair has a hop to his step as he walks onto the sidewalk.

A tall older gentleman with a cream tweed jacket walks a short plump dog without a tail. The dog’s rear end shakes back and forth as he keeps up with his walking partner.

There is an older man with his walker and his wife walks next to him. She carries a royal blue metal cane with a black rubber stopper on the end.

The walking stick figure is counting down again. When the number gets to 15, it changes from a white walking stick figure to an orange-red hand, emphasizing the change in urgency to finish the job of getting across the street.

A risk taker has pulled in front of me, and parked right in front of the yellow fire hydrant, just below the red and white “No Standing Anytime” sign, with the arrow pointed right at his car. He does glance back at his car a few times as heads into the coffee shop, perhaps concerned about his risk. Then, I see the flashing lights on his car. I surmise he is looking back to ensure his car is locking. Here’s to hoping the meter maids are elsewhere in the city at this moment.

I hear a horn blow. It’s been a while, and this is the first horn I hear. Pretty peaceful considering the volume passing.

A man in a jeans jacket, rolled a few times at the wrists with a cookie monster on the back, rolls a purple and green plaid bag behind him. He tilts quite a bit to the left to reach the handle while keeping the wheels rolling on the ground.

A man presses the crosswalk button and waits, hands jammed deeply into his pockets as he waits. He looks up and down the street. His white hair curls around the bottom of his black baseball cap.

A woman with a child in a stroller waits on the curb. Her young girl curiously looks back and forth, taking it all in from her unique position and her perspective. The curb clears of people, as no one else in this jumble of folks waits for the light. But, mothers always wait; precious cargo.

A woman with a white coat on opens the blue Free Apartment Guide box and takes a guide. This free guide may change her path in life; where she lives, who she meets, what comes next.

A lefty trots across the crosswalk, from corner to corner rather than straight across. He has his folio nestled comfortably under his left arm, as he moves swiftly across.

Two friends begin the journey across, but back track, stepping back onto the curb. The woman pulls at her tall black shiny boot, and the man adjusts his blue tooth in his ear. They now wait for it to be official; the change of the orange-red hand to the white walking stick person begins the countdown, and for them begins their journey, with the blessing of the glowing white stick figure.

A man with a limp walks across the street as he eats a sandwich from within a crumple of white paper. He is a righty. When he reaches the other side, he stops and stands there as he fishes out more of his sandwich, and his face disappears into the white paper flower to get it, as people behind him maneuver around him.

An older gentleman plays it safe, and with 10 seconds left on the crosswalk, he chooses to press the button and wait. After a long wait, I see his frustration in his body language as his head tilts from side to side and he throws his arms up. He does three false starts to go across before the orange-red hand eventually relents, allowing him to cross. Now he moves with speed, his previous caution thrown to the side.

There is another jumble of people waiting. A woman wears a heavy black coat, a young woman wears a white t-shirt and pastel shorts, another man wears a bright yellow and orange nylon vest, protective headphones resting around his neck; he and his headphones taking a break. There is another lefty, a woman with a large black bag on her left shoulder, cell phone to her left ear. These folks stand so closely for strangers, waiting and waiting.

Another risk taker. I missed his arrival, but my attention is drawn to his red car as the meter maid is preparing his ticket. The paper curls up as it prints out from his small hand held computer. He smooth’s it on the windshield and lifts the wiper to secure it underneath.

A man scratches his dark thick beard as he gazes into the sky. He seems so far away as he floats across the street.

A woman in a bright pink nylon coat bends way over, crouching with her knees fully bent to read the day’s front-page news in the newspaper dispenser, refusing to give up her four quarters for any more information than the top half of the front page.

A man with black and gray straight hair pulled back into a ponytail flattens stray hairs as he moves across the street. He tightens and readjusts his belt as he arrives on the other side, as though the short walk has loosened it.

An older gentleman with a white wide brim straw hat and a black band around it hustles across the street with a large brief case in his hand. The backpack he also carries, looped in one arm across half of his back, sways with each jostled step.

A mother and daughter hold hands as they cross. She looks to be about 8 or 9. They continue to hold hands on the other side, still connected to each other like that until they slip out of my sight.

A girl with glasses and a bun walks across the street, away from me. Her backpack takes up squarely almost half of her body, hanging past her waist and covering the top part of her legs. This does not slow her down.

A woman in a flowered sweater and blonde hair is carrying a large manila inter-office envelope across the street. Isn’t there a cardinal rule about inter-office mail truly staying inter-office?

A gaggle of 5 folks are on top of me now, and all 5 have sunglasses on. They actually look like they are going to walk right into the window, and they turn at the last minute, and the sunglass army marches on in formation.

Two men in suits stand and talk for two changes of the crosswalk. One man slaps the other one the back as he walks away, and the man left behind looks at his watch. The other man yells to the watch looker, and returns to his side, and they talk for two more changes of the crosswalk.

Now, I gather my belongings spread across my table at the coffee shop, slip them into my bag, and go wait on the corner, at the crosswalk. I am now one of the folks I have been watching for the last hour.

My long brown hair blows over one shoulder as the wind moves past me. I readjust my bag from my shoulder where I find it pulling my hair, instead carrying it in my right hand. I hold both sides of my shawl closed in front of me with my left hand. I stand with my gaggle of folks at the edge of the curb, and I wait.

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Darth Vader

Darth Vader has moved into my home, more specifically into my kitchen.  It all began several weeks ago.  I began noticing puddles on my kitchen counter. I found this to be a big problem, as this counter is used for piling the kid’s homework and their plethora of artwork. One time, the coffee maker overflowed, causing this ever changing pile to get all wet and coffee stained, Everything looked like it was 200 years old, after it dried out, brown with age.  I was really disappointed.  I really love my children’s artwork.  We save it, frame it, the works.

From that day forward, I never used the programmable automatic start on the coffee maker again.  I hung around as it brewed. Now, there are puddles.  This is not good.  The decision is made.  It is time for a new coffee maker.

After an hour at Sears in the coffee maker aisle, the children had long since used up all of their energy running around the nearby aisles.  Now, they lay there in the aisle, not quietly, much to my dismay.  They continue to whine and complain, and I could swear I saw an actual tear in the eight year olds eye. My husband and I were forced into what I would still consider to be a hasty decision, an hour later. I was still sufficiently irritated that they did not have an equal replacement for our old leaking coffee maker.  All we wanted was a white 10 to 12 cup coffee maker with a removable coffee chamber and a removable top water chamber. That is it, that’s the wish list.

But, no, no white coffee makers are here at all. Yes, the coffee chamber comes out, but you cannot put it on the counter, as it  tips severely to the side because of a structure jetting out on the bottom. So, you have to hold it with one hand while scooping coffee into it with the other hand.  What is the point of it even coming out? Our old one comes out and sits nicely on the counter, being a good patient while I fit it with its paper robe and scoop in the coffee grounds.

Now, about the removable water chamber on the top. With the old coffee maker, you simply lift the handle and carry the water chamber over to the sink to fill to the desired level, 10 cups for me, by putting the chamber under the faucet. Some of these new coffeemakers have removable chambers, but they are in the back.  You need to slide the coffee maker out, turn it around, and proceed to hold the coffee maker down with one hand while extracting the water chamber with the other hand. This would be a doable job, that is if I had a Pitocin drip and forceps to move the chamber along. (For those of you who do not know what those things are, ask your mother. If you have kids and still don’t know, then you may need to Google it).

Now, the color. Not one white coffee maker in sight.  Many are a combination of stainless steel with black accents, or all black. This decision is easy; black it is.  Let’s skip the Crime Scene Investigation with all the fingerprints that would get on the stainless steel. But, all of our other appliances are white, particularly the toaster that sits right next to it.  I start thinking about a black toaster.  Yes, what a nice pair they would make.

My husband and I wander to the toaster aisle.  The children’s whines getting louder thrust us back on track.  Must get coffee maker, must get coffee maker.

We select a black one, skip the removable water chamber, as we have no forceps and don’t know any prescribers for the Pitocin that would be needed for the chamber removal.

That night, with a twinge of sadness, I carefully place the old coffee maker in the garbage. We have had that coffee maker since we moved into our home 12 years ago, probably even before that.  After our goodbyes, I set the new coffee maker on the counter. It looks very different. I like its slimmer design, which leaves more counter space. I am unsure about its contrast color-wise, though.

I follow the directions in the box to brew my first pot of coffee.  I am frustrated at the coffee chamber. It comes out, but it does not stand freely on the counter.  Again, what is the point of it even coming out?  I put it back in and fill it with coffee.   Then I use the coffee pot to fill the water chamber. I hit the on button. That is good; a simple on switch is what I like and need. In about three minutes, the coffee maker starts huffing and puffing, yes, like Darth Vader.  My five year old is in utter disbelief. “Why does that have to be so loud?’  He has put my thoughts into words.  Finally, Darth Vader has finished his speech and silence falls upon the kitchen.

Time to pour the first cup.  A large puddle of coffee spills from the coffee pot as I pour. Oh, great, yet another consideration to finesse. You cannot pour too fast, too slow, or at a certain angle, or the coffee will spill. Thanks, Darth Vader.

It’s time to open the top and take the old coffee grounds out. I quickly drop it closed to avoid a third degree steam burn.  I look carefully and find the small round tab to use to avoid such a fate.  I lift the cover on top up carefully, but still flip it up just in case.  And don’t you know, with the top open tall like that,  that coffee maker looks just like Darth Vader with a round glass belly, pot handle like his hand resting authoritatively on his side, waterspout short like his dismembered arm. Unbelievable, it really is Darth Vader, here in my kitchen.

So, I decide to keep Darth Vader in my home for at least another week, to give Mr. Vader a chance. I will work with his idiosyncrasies.

So, back out to get Darth Vader some company. This time,  I go alone.  I find a simple black toaster, two slots. I bring it home and settle it in next to Darth Vader. For a moment, I think the toaster could be Luke Skywalker. Let’s hope that appliance doesn’t have a green beam of light that shoots from it!  That is not a good sign for a toaster.

Perhaps one day,  one of Darth Vader’s brew cycles will be a confession to my toaster, Luke Skywalker, right there in my kitchen.  Until then, Darth Vader huffs and puffs, twice a day, the rest of the time, stands quietly at attention the rest of the time.

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Final Farewell And in His Heart Forever     

     Two soldiers stand quietly and attentively behind the flag, neatly folded in a triangle. They wait and wait for the graveside service to begin. 
     I walk closer and take a picture of this scene. The two soldiers continue to look off into the distance, and the silence remains.
     Someone announces that the service is beginning. A few words are spoken , very few. Then, the Our Father. Then, a warning about the upcoming volley of gunfire from the three older soldiers placed at the back of this scene. Three or four shots cut through the silence,  in triplicate. Then, one of the older soldiers takes out his horn and begins “Taps”. The outside world creeps in as loud rap music blares from a car in another procession coming into the cemetary. The man from the funeral home hurries over to the cars driving past and signals for them to lower their radios. Then, the two young soldiers very carefully unfold the American flag, holding it open for just a moment, and fold it back up again. They so carefully trace the outline of the flag, so purposefully, I thought I could see the white gloved hands shaking.
     The young soldier places the red, white, and blue triangle in the outreached hands of the widow, and she holds it to her chest, keeping it there the rest of the time. Someone announces the service has ended. 
     A nine year old boy cries and hugs his mother who kneels before him, and his tears roll down the back of her black nylon jacket. This is bitter reality creeping in again. I hear nothing but the boy’s soft crying, and it is unbearable. The sadness of his grandfather being gone.
     Thinking about this later, I rewrite this in my head. How blessed they each were, to have a grandfather to love and be loved by, and to have a grandson to love and be loved by. And, this love will always be in his heart.

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Just Desserts

It’s Saturday night and time for a nice night out. We have landed at a friend’s house. The boys are excited to see their friend Mathias. And, Mathias has prepared a lovely dessert for everyone, except for himself. I imagine it is important for the chef’s pallet to remain clean.
Six white and very modern looking dessert plates are lined up with a display a colorful and amazingly professional looking desserts on each one. His dad shares the ingredients with us; four Cheezits, one M & M, a sliver of cantaloupe, a pita bread chip, a small strawberry wedge, a carefully placed sprinkle of cinnamon, and a drizzle of Tabasco sauce. It is actually plated very professionally. Mathias and his father watch cooking channels together, and wow, it shows!
When it is time for dessert, Mathias serves each of us the specific plate he has planned. Then, he does what any good chef does; waits for honest feedback from his guests. Except, he goes for complete honesty by crawling under the dining room table and waiting for us to talk. The chef of the evening is well beyond his 5 years of life experience.
We all let the chef know the great job he has done. He takes his craft very seriously. I was absolutely delighted by the whole experience. It was wonderful.

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Dry Cycle

        Today I asked my husband to start the dishwasher.  He announced he had read that skipping the heated dry cycle saved a tremendous amount of the energy used to run it. I could feel myself getting hot, a prime indicator of a level 4 to 5 irritation.  I had actually purchased the dishwasher recently, based exclusively on its drying function. I found, for the most part, the washing of  the dishes by hand to be therapeutic and grounding. I liked the feel of the hot water on my hands.  I would reminisce about all the projects that Matt and  I did before the kids came along while peering out the big double window over the double sink.  Then, I would admire with pride the projects I had muddled through, having taken a day off from work for each.  The wooden walkway up to the pool deck- I really liked this one.  Quite an upgrade over the several sheets of plywood stacked on top of the ever reappearing hole that each season’s woodchucks worked so hard on.  I often felt very peaceful while washing the dishes in the sink.  But, then, after the washing, things took a turn.  I came to despise the wet dishes.  There was no good fate for them or for me.  They would either need to be towel dried, or air dried-piled high in the dish drainer on top of the counter, and sprawling beyond the dish drainer’s borders, spilling onto the toweled counter to accommodate them.  How could clean things make a kitchen look so dirty?  This, this is what made my decision to get a dishwasher, to dry my dishes. And now, a hint, a suggestion about not using the heated dry cycle? My irritation level quickly bumps up to  a 6.  And, I am fully, I mean fully responsible for the dish duty in my household.  That being said, who would even dare to put that up for consideration.

            The next morning, as the children and the husband sleep, I unload the dishwasher. The ludicrous suggestion from the day before quickly re-enters my thoughts. I find myself estimating the pieces of silverware in this load- about 9 pieces in each slot, six slots total. That’s 54 pieces. My weekday morning routine begins the fill process for the dishwasher. Yes, a spoon for stirring my morning coffee.  Then, a butter knife to stir my protein shake an hour later. Now , a spoon for the husbands coffee just after this.  Now, another butter knife for cream cheese for one child’s bagel as part of his lunch.   Next, a sharp knife to cut the crusts off the cheese sandwich for the other kid’s lunch. Into the dishwasher they go.  Damn, I could have gotten away with one more use of the sharp knife by cutting an apple for the lunches. On and on it goes. Needless to say, the dishwasher is filled to capacity and run on a daily basis, less frequently when I am to tired or to lazy to cook and we eat out.  A full dishwasher, now that is a lot of dish drying time to be done by hand by me.  I find nothing therapeutic about this.

            This reminds me of the time I experimented with saving money by not running the dryer. This experiment lasted for exactly three loads of laundry; one load of towels, one load of dark clothes, and one load of white clothes. The towels went easily, quick and easy to hang.  I can do this.  Next, dark clothes.  Okay, this takes longer.  There are a few small shirts and a few big shirts, some boxers, and a few small pairs of socks.  Lastly, the white load.  I am aghast. This takes forever.  So so many pairs of white socks, big and little, a few t-shirts, big and little, and more socks, lots and lots of socks, with a clothespin, or two,  for each item.  It was time to analyze the results of my experiment, albeit a brief experiment. The dryer would now be used for the rest of my natural life.

Now, back to my dishwasher. I just know that I will be using the dry cycle on it for the rest of my life.  My resignation for this now brings my frustration level easily and quickly to a zero.

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